Recently I've been thinking I'd really like to meet a bloke in the same situation as me who feels like I do about the whole thing.
Coming to terms with being gay is hard for alot of people.
I, myself,never did the back & forth thing,but many people do. I haven't ever told anyone and I'm ridiculously uncomfortable with the whole gay thing.
I'm 21, soon to be 22 and I don't want to waste my youth.
Do you think meeting another 'closet case' would be my best plan of action and most importantly does anyone know any good websites where I could do this (either UK or Irish based, I live in Northern Ireland)?? I'm sure a lot of people will say I should just come out and accept it but that's not an option.
I'd happily cut 50 years off my life if it meant I could be straight and I want to meet someone who feels the same to assure myself I'm not mental.
We can't give out dating websites here its against the code of conduct.
At the minute I prefer people thinking I'm straight and I do kiss girls when I'm out quite a lot.
I haven't ever told anyone and I'm ridiculously uncomfortable with the whole gay thing.
Look around the forum, read some people's stories and struggles, and I think you'll realize you can be gay and happy and normal.
It's understandable at this stage you really wish you weren't gay, but give it time and you'll see being gay is not all bad, very far from it.
Admitting to yourself,that your gay, is probably one of the hardest things you'll ever do. Others can give you advice and you can read others stories.( it is quite helpful) but,in the end,it's you who has to decide which direction your life is going in. At the minute I prefer people thinking I'm straight and I do kiss girls when I'm out quite a lot.